tell me what you think it means..

have you ever found yourself spacing out while listening to music, like doing something, maybe singing the song or something. well sometimes when i'm listening to music i think of something and i just have a daydream in my head of me in a room alone and i'm really angry. i start throwing stuff and pulling my hair and just beating the crap out of things and the only thing i can hear is the song. someone could walk into the room and say my name three or four times and i won't even notice them. its kind of scary, because i don't want to be this angry person anymore, i try so hard to not let my anger consume me, i don't want to be that person again, but i can't help it sometimes. sometimes i just blow up. over nothing. mhmmm.. =[

bleh.

I will never know, myself
until I do this, on my own
And I will never feel, anything else
until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything
till I break away from me
I will break away
I'll find myself today

so something really strange happened today....

the song i posted in a blog yesterday is a very important song to me
it's called landslide by fleetwood mac
and i don't know why i decided to listen to it yesterday
i hardly ever listen to it because it always makes me cry
the reason its so important to me is because when i used to live with my mom and she was a drug addict she told me that she wanted me to play this song for her at her funeral.
and my mom has been worrying that she has lung cancer or a tumor in her arm lately and i've been really scared.
so for some reason i thought i would post it in a blog.
but anyways, today when i got on the bus, as soon as i sat down, they played the song on the radio.
it was really strange.
and i don't know what to think of it.
i'm not exactly the religous type.
i've been unsure about religion my whole life.
but when that happened i really didn't know what to make of it
was it just a simple coincidence
or is it "god" trying to tell me something...................

='[

the band that explains my thoughts, my life, everything.

the only way i can express my self.
the music that helped me through everything.
the music that probably saved my life.
An American Shootout.
Listen to them, read the lyrics, you'll understand.